Surfing the Wave of Depression
Current mood:accomplished
I chose to ride the wave…walk the path…go where the wind blows…etcetera etcetera and so far this journey has led me here. Here is a place of many blessing and many lessons learned.
To name a few, here are the most important ones:
I have a master’s degree now.
I have the job I want with a new company that I do believe I will enjoy working for.
I learned a lot about my self and how I handle sever stress. (It’s not pretty.)
I also learned who my friends are – and how they handle a very stressed out Anna.
I learned I have a serious fear of commitment. I can’t even commit to a hair color! Fortunately I’m good with change. Even I know of the impermanence of life and all it has to offer, this life is constant change which is why I have no problem catching the waves it presents me.
The fog of depression seems to have lifted… it was situational. But I knew that. I’m still doubting and struggling with my faith. However, the very thing that led to the depression (grad school in one year) has also introduced me to new faiths and places of learning/worship. I’ll check them out and see where that goes.
So, the wave has crested and I rolled up on shore a bit battered but better off for having taken the ride.
One of the things that make’s surfing so much of a challenge is that every wave is different. Which wave have you been surfing lately?
ms 5/13/09